If there really is a God... I am sure He is not very happy with me. And I KNOW that He would want nothing to do with me.
Can you relate to those thoughts? For most of my life I had very few thoughts about God. I figured if He did exist - He sure didn't love me. Because you see - I wasn't a very good guy. In my childhood, I tormented my younger brother and sisters - and as I grew older, I experimented with drugs and alcohol. If there was a way get ahead by lying or stealing - I would do it. Why not? I figured anyone else would do the same thing - so why get left behind?